I was obsessed with being so skinny for my pre-wedding photoshoot. I basically starved myself and counted my daily calorie intake. I capped it at 500 to 600kcal per day. As my BMR is about 1,200, it was unhealthy to do that.
I dropped to size S within 6 weeks, from 62kg to 49kg, but I was frequently feeling the lack of energy and I wasn’t happy. Even though I wore prettier clothes and my then-husband praised me, I still wasn’t happy.
My friends were concerned and when they asked me what was my secret… I had no idea how to tell them that I just starved myself. All these are behind me now though. That was 2009.
Fast forward to 2015, I am now standing at 1.67 metres and about 60kg. I run, I dance, I trek, I dive, I cycle, I do home workouts from YouTube, I watch my diet but I do not starve. I am much happier and I just feel so full-of-life every day!
Sometimes it is not about the scale and numbers. I feel much stronger and I am able to eat my cravings when I feel like it. I just needed the discipline to keep exercising to ensure that my body is working out and stays healthy. I never forget the joys of exercising, whether it is a solo activity or a group activity. Now my focus is on flexibility and staying fluid, as I feel that the core muscles are very important.