Adeline Cheah: I want you to know that you are loveable

When I was young, I never knew what self-love meant. I never loved myself. Boys sneered and told me in my face that they would only give me a score of "C" based on my looks and figure. Yet, I was so eager to get their attention and be accepted - that I gambled my health away.

My battle with myself began.

My period stopped for months, my pelvic bones started to show, my pants started to drop and my hair was falling out in clumps. I dreaded the sight of myself and my reflection everyday. And one day, I suddenly snapped.

I started to sway between anorexia and bulimia. By then, I had already grown to hate myself and feel guilty whenever I felt good about myself. I would consume impossibly large volumes of food and force myself to throw up thereafter. I was obsessed with calorie-counting and felt pleasure whenever I see the pounds dropping.

Finally, my mother took me to the doctor. My dentist recognised my eating disorder right away when he saw my corroded teeth. That was when I decided to help myself. I did not want my children to see their mother wasting her life away.

My husband and my children were the ones who gave me the strength to rediscover and the power to love myself. I no longer needed to validate myself through the eyes of others. I began to take up sports and rediscover a part of myself that I never knew.

I am a big fan of running now and have earned myself 12 medals in two years. I put them up in my room and these babies showed me how strong I can be. The nasty shallow opinions no longer bore a hole in my heart and make me bleed. I come to you as who I am.

I have friends who fiercely love me for who I am. My inner beauty makes up for what I am lack in my physical appearances. I want you to know that you are loveable. You do not need to depend on others' opinions or judgment. You are who you are and embrace yourself for it. Never accept anything less than full love for yourself. Before you criticise yourself for those freckles on your face or the wavy voluminous hair, stop yourself. Look at yourself in the mirror and into your own eyes. You are beautiful. You are loved. You are worth so much. Always.

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  • Come and join us for Bhangra-X next Saturday morning!! Don’t be afraid of trying new things; just grab a friend and #rockyourmoves with us! 9am at the Esplanade Waterfront, free, for men and women of all ages. Sign up at www.rockthenakedtruth.com/event/rockdans (link in bio)
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  • Our ROCKstar of the Month for August, Gilbert (@gilbertyang), was at his peak fitness during his army days. Then he went to Uni and the stress of studies caused him to gain weight.
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He said: “I put back more than 10kg, making me even more plus sized than my polytechnic days. The passion of running was replaced by the love of making great architectural designs and late night suppers.
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After I graduated and started my career in private practices, I still couldn’t find the discipline of keeping an active fitness routine. It was also during this time that I went through three incidents that knocked me down hard.
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First, my dad passed away unexpectedly due to cardiac arrest. I do not have a pretty picture of a perfect family. I recall how I used to get so excited when I saw my dad (four times a year) and then often cried when he had to fly back for work after his brief visit home. So losing him like that, was very painful.
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Second, years later, my childhood friend was the only victim in a car crash. Third, I broke up with my girlfriend of seven years after we laid plans for marriage.
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All of these caused me to slip into depression. I did move on, I dated someone (it didn’t work out though). Then my ex-colleagues encouraged me to seek an avenue to keep myself occupied. I took up running and gymming, something I missed out on during the peak of young adulthood.”
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Today, Gilbert is back in fine shape and has found back his love for running. He also married his love of his life (the ex-gf of 7 years from before). •
So don’t lose hope in life! It can turn around!! Read the rest of his story on our blog. Link in bio. #rockthenakedtruth
  • So if someone treats you like shit, it doesn’t mean you’re shit. Don’t let them get you down! #rockthenakedtruth
  • American singer Demi Lovato's battle with body image started before she was officially diagnosed with bulimia. •
Growing up, Lovato witnessed how her grandmother and mother both struggled with bulimia. •
Lovato's insecurities with her body and looks are also attributed to the many beauty pageants she participated in at a young age: Being onstage and judged for beauty. •
She started binge eating at a young age of 9. She put on lots of weight, lost confidence and started binging and purging just to make sure she fits the stereotypical skinny image of a model. •
She was also bullied in school and she started cutting herself. •
Lovato sought treatment in 2014 and have since recovered. She then used her fame to raise the awareness of body acceptance and is known to slam the 'thigh gap' trend. 
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