Top left (April 2015): After my last competition, I couldn’t let go of my contest look. I minded how others look at me and I struggled to maintain this figure. Subconsciously, I grew afraid of carbs and I started to overtrain and undereat. I ended up binging and it escalated to bulimia.

Top right (Sep 2015): I fell into depression. I hated myself and I wanted to save myself so badly. I lost control of my brain and body. My brain constantly wanted to eat. I can’t concentrate on schoolwork. While studying, I could easily ingest 1000+ calories in one binge session. I wasn’t productive in school and isolated myself and soon my friends started to detest me a little :'(

Bottom left (Oct 2015): I was on a yo-yo. Some days I forced myself not to binge but some days I fell back into it again. I kept falling but I refused to fall deeper. Some days I look really skinny, some days I balloon up. It was the hardest period of my life. I felt like I was possessed.

Bottom right (Now): I have been free of binge eating and bulimia for over a month plus – the longest period thus far. I have cheat and clean meals daily, I do not care about how others look at me anymore. I learnt not to compare but instead strive to be the best version of myself. I no longer fear outside food and carbs, and I’m just focused on living healthily and happily!